spoil.

There’s snapdragons on my mantle, 

I’m meeting your family. 

You’re lighting up candles, 

While I’m wearing your flannel. 

There are calls and flowers, 

And hand written notes. 

Table cloths and happy hours, 

With the warmth of your coat. 

Long talks and patience, 

And you taking me home. 

We’re in love and it shows. 

Everyone knows, 

Cause you’re spoiling me 

Laughing at the TV screen, 

With you I binge. 

I said I can’t watch anything, 

If I know the end.

We watch what you want, 

I said I didn’t care. 

You’re stealing the covers, 

Cause you know you can.

And I am left stunned by episode ten 

But you let it slip that my favorites dead. 

I am flushed with my anger.

My blood a hot wire, 

And you don’t understand. 

I’m overreacting, 

How you spoiled it for me. 

Front after front I was taught to forgive 

But you bought me to rot on the shelves of your fridge 

and you keep me around until you’re hungry enough 

You don’t seem to notice 

that my face has gone grey, 

There is mold in my gut. 

Expired and rotten and long over due

You left me to wilt without the courage to shoot 

Because you’re barely kind enough to keep me in the loop 

I have never met poison, 

Til I met you

Like black mold in my ceiling, 

You’ve infected the room 

How you’re spoiling me.